Time

This time of the year it is easy to be consumed with it...

Time.

It is a precious commodity these days. Not because you are slowly running out of it but because there is so much asked of your allotment.

And it goes fast.

When you were young it seemed to stretch out in front of you forever – like a million candles in a row - burning so bright that it’s like the Fourth of July. And since you can’t see the end of that line – since all you see is light – it was easy to think it would never end and that you would have no problem fitting in all your dreams and all the things you ever wanted to do...

But it goes man. And the candles flicker out one by one. And you can say it doesn’t speed up it does because even Einstein said that time wasn’t a constant and what does the speed of light mean anyway? How do you know you’re not moving that fast?

And then you find it’s not so easy to just get away and take that time for yourself – spend it as you wish. There’s work and sleep and wives and kids and the daily grind of driving to and from work and making coffee in the morning and brushing your teeth at night and all of this takes time.

Time.

No getting around it. But what about the things you want to do? Sure you want to spend time with your family because you love them and you do, you really do, but there are moments when you simply wish to have the silence of your own thoughts and your moments to yourself...

Because if you don’t you will go crazy. You may not know that but you will.

And you work and you work and you work. And the dreams you had become something else entirely and the joy is not coming from where you thought it would but it still comes.

And still there’s no time.

Take a moment - breathe.

And then you watch your kid run around in circles and roll around on the ground and walk up and down the same step over and over because all he has is time - at least as far as he’s concerned - because there is no death and there is no life and there is no growing old because there's hardly a tomorrow – there is only now. That is all he knows.

And it goes on and on.

And you smile and you feel good inside because that is how it should be.